What dreams do you have?

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How do you deal with life?

Is your life filled with bliss?

What dreams do you have?



I sometimes wonder about my life and what I am actually doing with it.

I feel like I have so little time and I have not achieved or done a lot.

Although, I also know that isn’t true.
I have done enough with what I can, with what I have, to the best of my abilities.

I want to have ‘momma Vee’s’ kitchen up and running, I want to have a big land with a tiny home or two.  I want to have a big garden (and a communal garden), I want to have a farm with animals. I am also thinking of having an initiative that works with people who have no homes, and a restaurant that only employs people on the streets. It may not be everyones cup of tea, but it definitely would be mine!

I also want to have a library, somewhere in the forest, where you just come and chill and read, and have some hearty meals and if you are tired, you can sleep in one of the readily available tiny homes, and if you happen to spend the weekend then perhaps you can help out in the communal garden.

A great idea to get away from the crazy city life. Just imagine, a cozy place in the forest where you read, eat, do some gardening chill and drink some local beers.

I should perhaps think of making my own beer and spirits---reminds me of the two places I visited in Amsterdam and NYC (hidden, small and cozy place) where they had different types of beers, liqueurs, Jenever and spirits. I mean they had the strangest of beers/spirits, like a cherry flavoured ones to pumpkin flavoured ones and locally made liqueurs. How lovely would that be?! To have this somewhere in the forest.

I feel the need to be doing more at this stage.

I also want to travel to places that would scare the shit out of me. I want to try out new food (new recipes) but I am not that adventurous when it comes to trying out food that is outside of what I usually eat especially when it comes to meat. To simply travel is what I am after…just to travel, to travel to experience life, to experience culture and to experience people. Travel to learn, to grow and to challenge ourselves.

I also plan on pursuing further studies, but my goodness I hate the ‘routine life of getting an education’ and having to be forced to study or read, and even to sit exams. But then again here I am contradicting myself. My life in itself is a routine (every day). I have everything planned out. I guess what I should say is that I just hate to study and I hate exams, I don’t like it at all.

Ageing is a separate issue altogether. I fear it because of what I know it will do to me in terms of health wise. So that’s the other part of my dream that I ignore and I often have pretended that I don’t age at all. While at the same time I am saving for a life that I am so unsure of.

Living ‘in the present’ can be difficult.

Living ‘for the now’ is what I struggle with.

Slowly I have learnt to bring abit of balance into my life, especially in ‘living in the now’ rather than so focussed on the ‘tomorrow’.

How do you deal with life?

Is your life filled with bliss?


What dreams do you have? 

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